I'm not gunna lie - Fathers day is hard for me. My father passed when I was eleven years old, and I don't think there will ever be a moment when I don't miss him. I figured I would share a little bit of my story, in case there are any others out there who have gone through a similar experience...
I am 25 years old. And at this point in my life, I have spent more time without my dad than I did with him...which is a hard thought in itself. Growing up without a father has been a struggle in more ways than one. When my father passed, my little 11 year old self was so afraid that there would be no one left in the world to protect her. But I know now, that there is no reason to fear!
Today, I am humbled and brought to tears by the abounding love of GOD who so graciously took me in his arms and continues to show me just how precious I am in His eyes. I am, have always been, and will always be His daughter. He has taught me the true meaning of love, and how to love myself. He has taught me the beauty of being exactly who He created me to be, and not diminishing myself. He has held me in my hardest and darkest moments, and also made me to shine brighter than the sun. He has provided for me financially time and time again, and given me opportunities that are just plain amazing! He has placed influential father figures in my life to provide me with sound wisdom and judgement. Something I am eternally grateful for. He is truly the best Father and dearest friend that a lonely and afraid 11 year old girl could have ever asked for that day on her bedroom floor.
And, "I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty."
Also by God's grace, I was raised by a very loving mother. She taught me everything I know about being strong, caring, independent and limitless! I love my mother more and more everyday, and recognize her for the blessing that she has been in my life and the lives of so many others.
For all those reading this whose fathers have passed or are not present - be encouraged! God is so real, and so wanting to take care of you and make you whole again! I can tell you some crazy stories about how God has showed up in my life and the healing that has come. He is my protector and provider, and He is there for you too! Just waiting for you to call on Him!
Truth be told, there are still a number of things that continue to reveal themselves in my personal life and in my relationships from not having an earthly father. Working through those things will take time, and a healthy dose of patience and prayer.
I am not sure what else to write, except to express just how much I miss my father, just how much I love my mother, and just how grateful I am that the Lord holds me so closely to His heart.
That is just a little snippet of my story. I am happy to share more of it with you! If you are interested in receiving blog updates, subscribe to my email list (located in the sidebar).